This is an excerpt from an email I sent to a friend tonight.
Hey, I believe my heart can coincide and agree with you. Circumstances shouldn’t dictate our joy, but they quite often do.
So 31 and still no blips on the radar for me? Somehow, it is O.K. tonight though. On many, many nights it has not been O.K. I have tried thinking of the shortness of time here on earth and how God might most be glorified in my life. I think of my friend and mentor Rich Malone (Director of Lake Forest Ranch) and how he got married at 35 and has 4 awesome kids now… I think of you and how much I struggled with singleness at your age and then wonder where the last years went. It is hard brother. It is so very hard. And though this may not help the aching, I will say what I have told myself many days. You don’t have to make it through singleness for the rest of your life… You just have to live through it today. What I mean is that we will never know what tomorrow holds and we cannot expect grace to be given for next year because it is only available in the moment.
We get overwhelmed and think there is no way we can make it through the rest of our life without that special someone – it is overwhelming for me, but in reality, I just have to make it through today without her. And what do I have instead of her? I have God Himself. His grace can only be experienced in this moment and as we dwell on the future, we won’t live in today. Tomorrow we will find grace for each second, but we must live in the here and now for tomorrow is not guarenteed.
So there is the struggle. Truthfully, I don’t do very well on many days when I’m in the mire of loneliness and I hang out there a good bit. It seems so easy for some people. They meet a girl, they date and they are married. We are the ones that not much comes easy to. It is more frustrating when we have something wonderful in front of us and then it is taken away – but we move on. We will last and God’s will will be done.
My brother, thanks for sharing and I will pray for you as you pray for me,
Stay strong in the word,
Chad
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